my last days of being 17

- got into Columbia College Chicago and will be going there!
- went camping at Mount Madonna County Park over the weekend, it was great.













- talking to new people and actually enjoying it
- UC Santa Cruz for 4/20. Best decision ever.

In exactly seven days from now, I will be eighteen years old. All you'd be able to hear me say in the past couple of years has been, "I cannot wait to turn 18, life is going to be much better." Life is much better already, but not because of my age, it's mostly because I've decided to just say "fuck it" whenever something bad pops up. I'm still finding something to smile about at the end of each sucky day. And I realize, for the first time in years, it's okay for me to make stupid stupid stupid mistakes and decisions, and no one has the right to take my dignity away. And no one will, unless I let them, but we all know that isn't going to happen.

I'm slowly letting my nerves about college getting to me and I know it's normal so I'm not necessarily stressing it. It's just a lame thing to be worried about at this point.

I'm going on an adventure, alone. Well, not necessarily alone, but I will be doing things in an unfamiliar place (but with someone I love dearly), and I cannot wait. While I'm in the midst of doing such things on my adventure, I'm also visiting Whittier. My fingers are crossed that it's the college for me, because I'm having some doubts, ack. We'll see what happens. I just want to be able to say, "HEY I'm doing this and I'm completely secure and happy with my decision," that is all.



I am content. Maybe slightly above content. Just better than usual.

Danny: So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned - my conclusion, right? Well, my conclusion is: Hate is baggage. Life’s too short to be pissed off all the time. It’s just not worth it. Derek says it’s always good to end a paper with a quote. He says someone else has already said it best. So if you can’t top it, steal from them and go out strong. So I picked a guy I thought you’d like. ‘We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.’


(from American History X)

+ got into Whittier College and I am strongly considering going there. I'll be far away from home, but close enough to feel like I'm not missing out on everything. If I hate it, I'll transfer. It just depends on how much financial aid I get! It's just funny that I go there I will be majoring in political science and child development. Do I look like a future poly sci major at a college founded by Quakers? Sam saif, "just a little bit." I really don't think I would hate it. I got in after applying on a whim and turning my application two weeks past the deadline. Maybe it was meant to be?

+ SPRING BREAK

+ properly met someone who is mad cool and made him the best mix with:

ring, ring, ring - de la soul
breakdance - herbie hancock
don’t ever fucking question that - atmosphere
trying to find a balance - atmosphere
woman with the tattooed hands - atmosphere
de la souls - p.o.s
kicking knowledge in the face - p.o.s
touch me i’m going to scream pt 2 - my morning jacket
thank you too! - my morning jacket
in my memory - beat happening
to be myself completely - belle & sebastian
get me away from here, i’m dying - belle & sebastian
bomb.repeat.bomb - ted leo & the pharmacists
soul on fire - spiritualized
don’t back in anger - oasis
whole wide world - wreckless eric
take the a train - duke ellington
detlef schrempf - band of horses
chameleon - herbie hancock
the book i write - spoon
up all night - suburban legends
picture perfect clique - tragedy andy
sitting on the dock of the bay - otis redding
closing time - semisonic
drinking for 11 - mad caddies
good intentions - mad caddies

+ I'm almost 18! Birthday camping trip next weekend. Getting my tattoo and double nostril piercing the day of, possibly.

- fucked myself over on Tuesday, but whatever















I need to take more pictures.