Currently waiting on college admissions decisions. Of course I was one of those people who waited until a week or two before the deadlines to apply, so of course, I'm going to hear at the last minute. Fail.

Where I applied (outside of CSUs):

Mills: No idea what my chances are for Mills, but I'm hopeful since my interview went really well, and I had awesome letters of rec and a solid essay to back me up. I'm just not sure if I had everything they wanted, and I was too lazy to check. I would be really happy if I got in, and it was my top choice for a while, but I don't know. I'm looking to go very far, or at least far enough. Mills is really just around the corner. It doesn't feel like it, but still. It would be nice to say I got in though.

Whitter:
I applied to Whittier on a whim and I'm pretty sure I applied after the deadline, but I got a letter back asking for the rest of my stuff so....hopeful? I did more research and it looks pretty cool. Middle of nowhere, but good enough.

SUNY Buffalo: I don't care so much about Buffalo. Upstate New York? Cool beans. My chances aren't bad, probably 50/50 chance of getting in. It's just a matter of financial aide and the fact that I know nothing about that area.

SUNY Purchase I'm not sure they got my transcript >: Purchase isn't a reach, definitely a match/almost a safety, but I'm not sure what's going to happen. Their journalism program looks good. It has really awesome courses, and the school is less than an hour outside of the city. Hideous campus, but the school itself seems badass. I don't have many complaints, I just don't know how I feel about New York anymore. If I really hate it, I can transfer to Columbia or NYU, and still live my dream.

Columbia:
Aaron calls it Columbia with a K. I'm so in, it would be a tragedy if I was denied. Even though it's easy to get into (open admissions), it's still a great school, and I have no doubt that I will like Chicago. People have been asking me where I am going, and I've been saying, "Columbia, most likely," so that's good, right? I have some dedication to it. My fingers are crossed for Columbia!

I just want to get into college already, damn.

Life is going really well, even though I've been irritated by certain actions by myself and others. I'm slowly getting over everything and have decided to look for a reason to smile after every sucky day. Doing that really just makes life better and I am totally digging it. It's definitely time for a new start!

strangest weekend ever

He was awesome


I have very talented friends







Car accident due to stupidity of underage, unlicensed drivers:

Nasty bruise on my thigh too.

Other than that, life rules.

inspiration

"Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking, and don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it." - Steve Jobs

"I’ve never been lonely. I’ve been in a room — I’ve felt suicidal. I’ve been depressed. I’ve felt awful — awful beyond all — but I never felt that one other person could enter that room and cure what was bothering me…or that any number of people could enter that room. In other words, loneliness is something I’ve never been bothered with because I’ve always had this terrible itch for solitude. It’s being at a party, or at a stadium full of people cheering for something, that I might feel loneliness." - Bukowski





(credit lost for pictures. leave a comment if you know where they belong, thanks!)

zora howard (girl in the video) makes me feel very unaccomplished, goddamn. she is wonderful. watch i have bi-racial hair, you will be amazed. the video is from 2006, she was 13 years old when she performed it. thirteen ?!!

i'm going to go to college and write and hope i can be just as awesome.

life seems much better whenever i realize why i decided i wanted to be a writer